I have lots of complicated relationships. To be honest, who doesn’t?
I love my blog, but I have not been great about blogging recently…… Complicated
I love to run, but haven’t been running much lately……. Complicated.
I want a clean house, but I hate to waste time cleaning it….. Complicated
I want to be a size 8 or honestly I would take 10 at this point, yet really don’t do what is necessary to make that happen…… Complicated.
I miss running with my friends, yet don’t seem to have the time to meet up with them as our schedules don’t mix….. Complicated.
I have a VERY complicated relationship with food. To be honest, who doesn’t?
The problem I have is the all or nothing mentality and often we might be the ones complicating things more than they need to be.
As I previously mentioned, I’ve met with a nutrionist a few times now. She has given me some good feedback. We have talked about different food choices, adding more protein to diet and less carbs, and looking at better options overall. Things that most of us all know, but she has given some good tips. Overall it has been worth it.
Here is the complication though……. While I know everything she says is valid, I am beginning to wonder if I have the conviction to actually follow through. So far the answer to that will be a resounding no. I can’t even get myself to track my food choices for a day or two. Now maybe it’s because I know where I’m going off track and I don’t want a paper trail to remind me. Maybe it’s because I’m not determined enough to follow through. Maybe….. Maybe….. Maybe….
There are so many reasons we don’t reach where we think we want to go and I maybe to the point where I, honestly, am not sure I want to got there anymore.
I just had my physical in December. Cholesterol only went up 4 points and blood pressure is still really good. So while I have all the other stuff with my Hypopara going against me, relatively everything else is looking ok.
So now the questions I need to ask……
What do I really want and what am I willing to do for it?
Answers will be coming shortly and probably changing as time passes.