So tomorrow marks one year on this magic carpet ride. Last year at this time, I was prepping for my thyroidectomy. You know the usually stuff you do prior to a surgery – make sure your will is up to date, make sure the house is clean, make sure the fridge is stocked, Oh and make sure Thanksgiving Dinner was ordered.
Going in I was prepared for the recovery of the surgery. I was prepared with having to deal with getting my dosage right for my meds to replace my now missing thyroid. Easy Peasy. I really was not worried at all. You see, I knew so many people who either had their thyroid removed or knew someone who had theirs removed. Another ace in the hole was one of my sons although he has a thyroid, it has not functioned since birth. To be honest, my only concern was that a surgeon was going to literally be slicing open my neck. That was my main focus. Everything else would just work itself out.
So now I am one day shy of my surgery and I realize that it wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. The blip on the screen was much bigger than I thought it would be. Still trying to adjust the thryoid meds which is really what I attribute my 15 pound weight gain this last year too. Oh and the fact that my running took a dive. It’s a work in progress.
This last year has been an adjustment both physically and mentally. Prior to the surgery I in my mind was chasing a 4:15 marathon, completed a 50 K, and was pushing my limits. I did not realize that post surgery dealing with parathyroid glands that decided that they no longer would want to function properly that my limits would change and change drastically. I didn’t even know that there was such a thing as Parathyroid gland let alone 4 that were very important.
Over time, I may get back to where I was but realistically speaking I am not getting any younger. In less than 2 years, I will be hitting a number many refer to as a milestone even, but we aren’t there yet!
Where we are is a celebration of where I am today.
Is it where I want to be? Not exactly. That being said….
I ACTUALLY RAN THIS WHOLE THING.
There was no walking. There was no stopping. There was only running. And while I will admit that it was so much harder than it used to be and I was so happy to hit the end, it is so much better than it has been. Life gives you what it gives you. Today it gave me 3 miles. For today that is enough. I admit that some days it’s not, but as I continually remind myself….. You can’t live in the past. You can’t spend your life living the should of , could of, and would of’s of life. You get what you get and you don’t get upset. And my personal favorite that my sister hates….
It is What it is!
So today, I look back on not where I was prior to 11-18-2016, but how far I have come since then. The support that my friends have given me has helped me continue to push on. You have been there when I have complained about my aches, my pains, my feeling tired all the time, and everything else in between. So this is my shout out to you…… For listening when I complained. For understanding. For your ideas and suggestions. For run/walking with me when I need to and when I need to again and everything in between. It hasn’t been an easy year learning to deal with “the new normal,” but thanks for taking the trip with me.
PS – I’m still following my training plan for the January Half Marathon. One week down:)