We live in a society where strength is looked up to and any kind of weakness should be both stamped out, frowned upon and just wrong. Asking for help is often seen to some (not all) as an almost sacrilegious thing. We live in a society where if we don’t like something we just ignore it. This holds true to so many things from politics to health. The expression bury your head in the sand didn’t come from nowhere.
You see this in runners (myself included) who rather than deal with an injury may try to shake it off and run anyway. I did this with my Plantar Fasciitis and also when I twisted my ankle training for the 50K. It wasn’t until I was out about 2 miles after I twisted it that I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to run off the pain. I also did it to when coming back from my surgery. Trying to jump back in where I left off like everything was the same. Some times you can’t run out the pain. Some times you need to face it, deal with it, and treat it.
Why do we do these things? When a friend comes to us in need, we don’t think less of them. We don’t hold it against someone who has fallen ill or becomes injured. Then why do we hold ourselves to different standards?
This weekend I am going to run my first race post surgery. My first race with hypoparathyroidism.
I am both excited and apprehensive at the same time. I’ve got my arsenal all ready to go.
I originally signed up for the marathon. Thank God that I was smart enough to know that was never going to happen. I’m not even properly trained for the half marathon that I’m running. Luckily for me though I’m not going in alone. I’m going in with some friends and we are all going to do what we need to do to get to the finish line.
Even more lucky, these are friends that I trust to keep an eye on me. I’ll be honest. Part of me is a little nervous. Not because I’m not trained enough which I’m not. I’ve done races before not properly trained. I’m nervous because this will be my first real test on how I will be able to run distance with my calcium issues. It’s also a test for how much I need to prepare for Chicago Marathon training. A base line if you will.
I’m not trained, but I’m still prepared. I plan to pack my calcium tablets with me and take 2 before the start. I also am heading a recommendation from a hyperparathyroidism athletes group to put Cal-Ez in my water.
I’m not thinking about pace. Ok I’m thinking about but I know I need to just let it go. The ego is strong, but needs to be left in check. This is not the day. I must remind myself of that and let my ego go as this will be the day just to finish. I am handling it like a test run:) But a test run with a medal at the end!
This is the first run in a new chapter of my running.
On your mark