Time has passed.

I’ve rested.

Like really, really, really rested.

I had thought about it, but was not motivated. I could not force it. I could not fake it until I felt it. I just wasn’t there.

Not even a smidgen.

I couldn’t pretend. I couldn’t show up. It’s not even that I wasn’t motivated. It is that I just didn’t care. I didn’t miss running. I didn’t miss working out. I didn’t even have a spark.

I was tired. Like really, really tired. Now to be honest, I’m still tired. I’m still sore. I’ve still got a lot of things going on. Working full time, baking, and medical stuff. But there is a difference now.

I am actually ready to begin. I am not being forced into it. I want to do it. This is good now too because I got into the NYC Half Marathon. My training plan starts next week and here’s the thing……… I am excited to be starting. I am excited to try again.

I do also have a motivation. I had my physical earlier this month. Somethings expected. Things like being overweight. Cholesterol going up a little bit but not enough for medication which I am happy about. I don’t want to add anything else as the Hypopara is enough. Super High urine calcium levels as always (due to meds/calcium needed for the Hypopara) – Not unexpected, but concerning. Not much to do right now as I don’t qualify for the trial of the PTH therapy. The surprise was the pre-diabetes.

Whelp……….

That will be a wake up call.

Although this wasn’t what made me ready to start. This was the final motivation to do so. Timed perfectly with getting into the NYC Half.

So here is being ready to train. Missing the feeling of running and wanting to be better. What is nice is that I will be doing a recheck of my labs in March to see if a follow up is needed, but this is same time as the HM.

Here’s to doing better.

Here’s to feeling better.

And most of all….

Here is to actually wanting to Start again.

I’ve already taken the first step and started at a gym getting set up to work out.

I know it won’t be easy. I know my body will resist. I will be sore. I will be tired…… but here’s the thing

I can do hard things.

I am ready to do hard things.

I am ready….. really, really, ready.

Most of all, I want it this time.

It’s go time.