Part of being a passenger of life is abdicating responsibility and therefore accountability. If it is all out of our control, then nothing that happens is our fault. Not really the way it works. I realize that even though I had thought I was taking control, I had handed over the keys and just going along for the ride.
There is truth that with Hypoparathyroidism much is out of my control, but I also recently realized that I was giving up all control to it. That I was believing that due to the Hypopara that I just had to go along for the ride. That there was nothing that I could do That I just had to go along with the status quo. I was wrong.
I have talked about gaining the 20 plus pounds since becoming Hypopara. I’ve tried to loose it with no luck. So I just gave up. And this is not even about the weight but about health. For me this is now about my creeping up cholesterol, feet that are suffering from the extra weight, and now my sleep apnea.
This past week I took a step about taking back control and jumpstarting my healthy nutrition. I completed a five day healthy smoothie challenge which is just what is sounds like. Every morning instead of skipping breakfast or eating something filled with carbs an no nutritional value, I started the morning creating delicous, healthy, and power packed smoothies. They were yummy. They were easy to make and they also left to better choices later in the day.
I found these to be a great way to start the morning and set me up for a better day. Come lunch, I was making healthier choices and I was thinking about what I was putting into my body instead of just aimlessly grabbing something.
I fought. I ignored it. Now I embrace it….. Kind of.
I will say it’s better than the alternative.
You might remember me mentioning how I failed my sleep study in a spectacular way. I was recently diagnosed with sever sleep apnea. They told me I was having more than 45 “episodes” an hour. So with that being said, I was while not looking forward to starting my therapy I was most definitely “happy” to start. While sleep apnea is often made fun of because one of main symptoms is snoring, it is really no joke. So here we are.
I feel like medusa as the tube is at the top of my head. It really is quit a site. I look like bane from Batman as I need a full face mask. It isn’t as comfy as it sounds, but actually I have been sleeping much better. On the plus side it is designed for air to release at tube at top of head and some out of front of mask. Assuming it is for air pressure, but to me I feel like it’s like a built in fan:)
The first morning after sleeping with it, I actually woke up feeling refreshed. It’s been a long time since I woke up feeling that way.
On the top of that I am not feeling so tired all day.
One of the downsides of having a disorder like Hypoparathyroidism is that sometimes we chalk everything up to it and miss other things. It doesn’t help that symptoms are all over the place. Anyway, I chalked up my exessive tiredness to Hypopara and while I’m sure some of it came from it, some of it also was coming from my undiagnosed sleep apnea. So now that it’s diagnosed and being treated….. things have improved this last week.
One cool feature of my Cpap machine is that everyday it downloads to an app how long I slept, how many episodes an hour (under 2) and other things. They do this for a few reasons. Once of them also being that insurance uses it to make sure that you are using the expensive equipment for them to continue to cover. On the plus side, my doctor will also be able to see the data and help determine courses of treatment.
So while this is great for my sleep and my health, it is also really good for my training. Training for a marathon is hard enough. Training for a marathon when you are beyond exhausted it next level. So this is a win win.