As much as I know change is inevitable.
As much as I know that change is part of life,
As much as I know that standing in one place with your feet moored to the ground is not the way to go in life,
As much as I know that you can’t stop life from changing,
I do not like change.
I like consistency.
One of the things that drives my mother nuts is when she asks what is new and I tell her nothing. I like that answer. If nothing is new. Nothing has changed and again I like that.
What can I say, I’m not exciting or fun.
Oh wait, yes I am:)
This past year, there has been so much change. I would like to say, some good and some bad; but that I think would be a lie. For the most part, most has been bad. I’m not having a pity party, I am just trying to accept the changes.
Change is hard.
I’m learning to go with the flow (a little bit), but the problem is the flow keeps changing.
I was and am getting into a good rhythm of working out and running, but I am no where near where I should be to run a half marathon this month. I am supposed to run the Fred Lebow half, but it most likely will not be happening. I’m sure that I could suck it up, but I haven’t run longer than 6 in a while. This would not be smart. It wouldn’t be smart for anyone, but with Hypoparathyroidism it would really not be smart especially when my doctor is changing my dosages. I can feel the effects of the lower dosages. I can feel the difference of lower calcium levels and am actually waiting some blood work as I’m sure that we will need to make another change. We have not yet found the sweet spot.
These are good changes though. It is nice to finally have a doctor that I have confidence in. Although I really was feeling good with the treatment plan of my last endocrinologist, it was only a matter of time before it led to disaster. My kidneys will like the new doctor better even if it means that I’m back to waking up with leg cramps and sore in the morning. So many fun things. I will work on these adjustments.
Last year it was all about coming to terms with the fact that I had this disease. I kept thinking it would go away. It didn’t. I’m a lifer now. It sucks. It’s one of the things that isn’t changing, BUT this year with a doctor who can properly guide me….. This is the year I take me life back.
Will things be different?
Will I have to learn new strategies to get where I want to go?
But change is good.
Plotting, Planning, and rolling with the changes…..