My new expression really seems to be…..
I’m just not feeling it.
I know I need to get running again. This week I actually did start. I’m proud to say that I went out for 3 three mile runs. They were not fast. They were not pretty, but they were all in a different season. The first one was on a nice day. The second one it was a cold rain. Then the last one was run on a cold day with snow covering the ground. That should count for something.
I guess it does, but
I’m so not feeling it.
Last month I had signed up for a 10K trail race. I was smart enough to know that I would not be ready for more than that. I realized that really I wasn’t even ready for that. I’m sure that I could have gone out and got it done. I’ve done crazier things than that in the past. Like last year at this same race I ran what I refer to as a surprise marathon. I was feeling it. I had the drive.
Today and most days right now….
I’m not feeling it.
It’s more than my running too. It’s just the way I feel right now about most things. I’m not sure if it’s hormonal. I’m not sure if it is the medicine’s that I’ve been taking. I’m not sure if is the lower calcium levels that I’ve been fighting. I’m just not sure. I just know that I have not been myself. I’ve been going through the motions like everyone else, but my heart has just not been in it like normal. I’m normally a happy go lucky kind of person and I know this just isn’t me. I’m working on it though.
I have always heard that recognizing there is a problem is the first step. I recognize that I’m just not myself and will talk to my doctor about it.
In the meantime, I’m going to continue with the fake it till you feel it mentality. Besides whether I like it or not, I really am officially entering marathon training. I will go through the motions until I find the joy that I normally get not just from running but life in general.
This weekend I plan to look at marathon training plans. I do not plan to follow one to the letter T, but I do want to figure out which one I will use as a general guideline. This marathon will be interesting. My first big race back running after surgery. My first race that I will be in charge of my training. I think I will like the flexibility of it even if I won’t be as prepared as in the past. Who knows….. I may surprise myself.
What plan do you follow for marathon training?