For those vaccinated, while it might not be deadly is still worrisome.
It is stressful…
But one of it’s biggest characters is being a thief of so many things,
but a thief of time…..
Time spent with those you love….. missed.
For more than a whole $%&*@!& year, we hid from those we love for their protection. We facetimed, zoomed, texted and everything else but there were no hugs…….. no family get togethers………. No holidays……… No birthdays……. Nothing……
For their protection….. until we were given the opportunity to vaccinate.
Then we gathered. I am thankful for that. Thankful because I got to spend a few afternoons together. My Mother-in-Law who safely protected herself from Covid was lost this week to other illnesses. Obviously, I am feeling all the feels you get when a loved one passes, but on top of that….
I’m angry because we couldn’t get a handle on Covid, so much time was wasted. Our last Christmas together was not together. Our last vacation, was not together. So many things we took for granted pre-Covid were missed. Most of all I’m sad that she is gone, but also relieved that she is not suffering and that she is now reunited with those she loved and lost.
Circle of life, I guess….. It’s always harder for those left behind. To quote this wise woman who will be missed
“Love each day, kiss your husbands and wives and hug your kids. Life is so short… make it sweet.” 💔
So tired of 2020, but who says 2021 is going to be any better. Although I do have hight hopes for after January 20th, but even then it will be a process to turn things around. Not the flick a switch, say Happy New year at midnight and everything rights itself.
The problem is now we have all gotten comfortable being uncomfortable. It is the norm. We stopped wiping down our groceries. We started going out more (not really in this house). We started expanding our bubbles. We took our lives off the holding pattern that the initial surge created.
This is good…..
This is also bad…..
It is good because for the here and now, we do need to learn to live with Covid. We need to work. We need socialization. We need do what we can in the safest manner we can. Although there is good news on the horizon, it is on the horizon and we need to do what we can to get through the here and now.
The time will come when this will pass. When the lockdowns, the masks, the intimate gatherings become social events again. When this will all be a not say very pleasant memory that we will pass stories on to our potential grandchildren about…… We won’t even need to exaggerate because the truth is bad enough. The stories will begin with….. The year was 2020 and there was no toilet paper to be found.
But for now.
We still show caution.
We remain patient.
We wear our masks.
Most of all we….
Tomorrow will be a better day even if tomorrow is a short distance away. We don’t know what tomorrow yet, but it is coming. Life will go back to normal. We will carry the lessons that we learned We will hold onto those that carried us through 2020 in what ever way necessary. We will throw mask burning parties. We will do all of these things if we just have patience to get there.
As a runner, what I miss most about 2020 is races. Not even crossing the finish line, but racing with friends. Training for events. Planning events. Waiting at start line of events. I miss it terribly, but I have no desire to do any in person events right now. Everyone has their level of comfort and this is past mine. To be honest, I don’t much enjoy running in the park filled with other runners and walkers. There will be a day where that won’t even be a thought and I can’t wait.
So we wait.
We practice all the things we know we need to do….