Trust is a funny thing. Trust is something that needs to be earned and is sometimes hard to do. I had to go out on the ledge and trust my coach, my training, and myself. These are not necessarily easy things to do. I trust my coach but trusting in ones self can be harder. Sometimes the doubt creeps in, but I shut the door on it in New York City.
I had a great race. I had phenomenal race. The stars were aligned. The sun was shining and it all came together. I pushed the doubt and the fears to the side. I took a leap of faith and went with it. I started the race with the knowledge that I could do this. I had a plan. A plan that my coach helped me develop. All I needed was to stick to the program and trust in my training. I went out as planned, but almost got sidetracked early on by the 2:00 hour pace group. They blew past me around mile 2. At first I think that I tried to stay with them, but I stopped myself. They were not following my plan. They were running a different race. I knew what I needed to do and they were not doing it. They were going out too fast for me. I let them go. It was hard at first, but I had my mantra that I kept repeating to myself. It was not a planned mantra, but it was fitting.
TRUST IN YOUR TRAINING!
It was that simple. I needed to trust in the hours that I’ve logged. The miles that I’ve ran at pace. The fact that I had done the work to set me up to do what I needed to do. What I needed to do was not what everyone else needed to do. So I let them go. I trusted in my training and my ability to get it done.
I was in the zone.
A friend that I went to the half with came up to me a few miles in. I actually said to her, “Karyn, just so you know I’m not being a Bitch. I’m just in the zone.” I needed to run this race by myself. Some things are like that. You need to do them by yourself. This was that race for me. I needed to focus on my pace, my calculations, and moving forward. She understood. (Love you, lady).
As I ran, I knew where I needed to be. I had a pace band in my pocket that I didn’t use during the race; but had done some calculations ahead of time. I kind of knew where I needed to be when. I added up the time I needed to hit as the miles rose. I was hitting my targets. There were times that I had to reign myself in as he race was so exciting. I was trusting in the training and not trying to bank time.
My plan was to run consistently till around mile 10 where I would pick it up a little more. At that point my mantra became NO REGRETS. By this I meant that no matter what, I would not have regrets because I was doing all I could. I also meant that I would not give myself an out. That I would continue to push it and fight for the sub 2 because the only way I would have regrets is if I backed down. So NO REGRETS. By mile 12, I was pushing it pretty hard but trying to make sure as to not burn up. I knew I would be close. I knew that I was going to need to give it all I had at the end. So I saved a little fuel in the tank and when I hit the 20K mat, I pushed it even harder.
You can’t have regrets if you’ve done everything that you’ve needed to do. If you’ve given all you have. I dug as deep as I could go and I did it!
A minute to spare:)
I honestly can say that if somehow I didn’t make my goal, I would have been happy with this race. Honestly, I am not saying that because I reached my sub 2 goal. I was telling myself that that last 3 miles.
That being said, I am over the moon with reaching it.
This was an amazing adventure. There is more to tell, but this is enough for now.