I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again more for me than you:)
I’m not a world class athlete. I’m not a top 10 finisher. Although I have had a few good finishes I will admit. Those have been at smaller events though. In looking over my races in Athlinks, I can say that I’ve had some good races with some nice paces. Normally though I admit that I am a middle of the packer.
I’m not many things, but what I am is determined.
I am determined to not to be the fastest or run the furthest, but to just keep going. At this point it is all I can do and really all I want to do. I’ve pushed myself to run fast. I’ve pushed myself to run far. Right now all I want to do is push myself out the door. To run with no purpose other than to run. No agendas. No plans.
This is not to say that in the back of my mind I don’t have goals or plans. I do. Everyone does. But for right now, getting out the door is enough.
I have no desire to run 40 miles a week that I was running before my surgery. I would like thought to get out the door at least three times during the week. I would be happy with 20 miles a week. I’m not even close to being there yet.
I was having lunch with a friend today and we were lamenting about how easy it is to stop running, but how hard it is to start back up again. Even when you really have the desire to run. Routines change. Excuses are easier to form. Life gets in the way. Right now it’s really a day by day thing. I’m trying to get back into the routine of it all. It does my heart good o know that I am not alone. There are a few of us for various reasons all trying to get our mojo back. I think that now that Spring is on the horizon that will help tremendously.
On today’s run we were talking about how the NJ Half is only a month away. We are all know that it’s well past time to stop putting off on our training and that we need to get serious. One thing that I was saying is that although I have been very happy not to have had an event on my calendar every month like in previous years, that it is much easier to put off running when your feel like your calendar is clear. That will be something I will think about for next year.
For now though I am thinking only about getting out and running.
As I said today…
You don’t have to go far. You don’t have to go fast. You just have to go.
This will be my new manta for now.
So this week is off to a great start with 5 miles in the books. Tomorrow will be a rest day with some blood work to see how things are going. Then Wednesday, its time to get back out there.